I have been a parent for a while now, and while I have not been head of the PTA involved I have always tried to help out where/when I could. This year, with my youngest two in school I have more of a chance to help out. Was helping once a week at the school lunch, until those bratty kids made me not want to do that anymore. I have volunteered here and there. I love working around kids and being around kids - I get a lot of joy out of being around kids - usually - but I can say at this point I never want to work in that school again.
Other blogs have pointed out that I don't feel like I fit down here. I am who I am. I don't wear make-up. I am overweight. I have yellow, crooked teeth. I have been this way my entire life and have worked around kids most of my life as well. Kids usually love me. Kids who never go to anyone but their parents happily climb up in my lap. I am a kid person. . .
Well - I think that went away somewhere. Evelyn's class is awesome. I have helped out in there a time or two, and the kids from there always say "Hi" to me when they see me on the street. It is the twins class. Those are the kids who pop out, "You're not my boss, you're Lucy's boss," when I work the lunch room. And more recently - something I find very sad - Ellie is now being singled out and made fun of because I am her mom.
I can take the bratty kids not listening to me. I can take the, "Why do you have two rows of teeth?" question - it is childhood curiosity. What I can't take is my kids being singled out and laughed at because I am their mother. I never wanted that for my children. I have been there and I know how much it hurts - but now as a parent it hurts even more to see my kids hurt because I am who I am. . . .
I am thankful my husband has a great job, but I really hope he finds another great job somewhere not here in the next year or two. I don't like my kids growing up in this environment. . . .